Anxiety Sucks

A lot of people have anxiety and depression, and a lot of people like to act like experts on the topic without any degree or training. I can only offer my experiences as to what it’s like to have anxiety. I’m not gonna pretend like I can give advice or write Top 10 lists to help anyone.

I realized one day as I was shopping how anxious I was. I was taking my time strolling the aisles, killing time because I had nothing to do for several hours. Then, I started worrying, “What if I’m going too slow?” “What if this person grabbing ice cream hates me for taking my time?” “What if Whole Foods kicks me out for being too slow and lame?”

Anxiety Girl

All of those thoughts are irrational thoughts. I don’t know why I have them. If I did, I could stop it. If there was a switch to turn off the bad stuff, I’d flip it. Thoughts like this happen to me often. I have good days when I don’t think so negatively. Some days I worry if I’ll ever find someone and why am I alone. Some days I worry if I’m going to get fired because my boss doesn’t like me anymore (hey, it did happen once). Some days I worry about if God loves me, or if my friends are faking being my friends. These are the bad days. I just got to say to myself, “These thoughts simply are not true.”

Not Today Satan Bianca Del Rio

I try not to pay these thoughts any attention. I write. It helps keep me sane. I go to punk rock shows. Listen to music. Having a religion helps, too, believe it or not (Matthew 6:26-32). I try to talk to others about it, but it’s hard to find good listeners or good advice-givers. So, that’s the real.


Review: Hard Candy Lipsticks

Y’know, I kick myself every time. When I reviewed Wet N Wild a couple of months ago, I lamented how despite there are affordable cruelty free products available at Walmart, a majority of the time they’re simply not good quality. This time – against my better judgement – I made the same error.

I purchased two Hard Candy lipsticks from Walmart. One was Hard Candy’s Plumping Gel Stick in Beloved, and the other was the Fierce Effects Lipstick in Sly-Lac. The Fierce Effects lipstick ~sort of~ resembled Kat Von D’s Studded Kiss lipstick in its packaging. Also, I wanted a fun color that didn’t cost $20. Each of these products cost $5.00.

Well, sometimes you get what you pay for, everybody. Hard Candy Lipsticks

The Plumping Gel Lipstick went on SO NUDE it looked like I wasn’t wearing anything. I like a good nude lipstick, but damn, if I wanted to look like I’m wearing no makeup, I’d wear no damn makeup. The Fierce Effects lipstick gave a nice lavender color but it wore off after one meal. I know the lipstick wasn’t intended to be long lasting, at least it didn’t say as much, but shoot. That’s what you get when you spend $5 I guess.


I would not waste my money on these products again.

Review: Everyone Body Oil

Because I’m lazy and wait til the last minute to buy my beauty staples like Palmer’s Cocoa Butter, or coconut oil, I was forced into trying something new. Haha, I act like trying new things is a bad thing but really, I just hate spending a ton of money on beauty products.

Everyone Body Oil was about $12 at Heinen’s, a regional grocery chain in the Midwest. There were a few different varieties, but I chose the Good Love scented body oil. It’s yellow in color and has a light, citrus scent. It says you can use this product in the bath, for a massage, or on your skin. I chose to simply use it as a moisturizer.

Everyone Body Oil Good LoveIt works just fine as a moisturizer. It’s cruelty free so that’s a plus. The only thing I noticed is that it’s not as viscous as coconut oil – it has a similar consistency of water. An 8 oz. bottle costs about as much as a jar of of coconut oil, so I’m not sure I would splurge on this product in the future. I didn’t have any adverse reactions with my sensitive skin, so that’s a second plus.